I imagine that’s your voice talking to me. I imagine I’m taking direction from you now. That you are my parent and I am your child. Is that weird? Who cares? Whatever works on any given day. I miss you, Levi. I can’t see you now but I trust that you are here.
Read MoreCan you see me here? Can you see me? Can you gaze at the reflection of death and loss without losing your head? I have had no choice. I have had to continue to move, and writhe, even as other people are frozen by the horror of this life, this particular life.
Read MoreAnja doesn’t need me. She requires nothing. Or maybe it’s more accurate to say that the world I live in doesn’t recognize what she needs, doesn’t acknowledge – and so doesn’t allow space for – the ways I should attend to her. My care is spread thin.
Read MoreI am reaching but you have drifted away. Time seems to stand still and while the world keeps turning for others mine has stopped entirely. Time no longer exists in this place.
Read MoreI also need to tell you, as it’s ok to have these horrible moments and to struggle, it’s also ok to slowly start to pick up the pieces. Slowly put the pieces back one by one. Build a new version of you. One that will have this loving memory of your child. Yet, know what it means to weather the worst storm.
Read Morei need the reminder that what once was
will become again
that what is hidden will be seen
that the soul i once held and carried
and will be mine in my arms again
Bereaved parents of lost babies and potential of all kinds: come here to share the technicolour, the vividness, the despair, the heart-broken-open, the compassion, and the other side of getting through this mess called grief.
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